To the selfish, like me: Feeling of loneliness begets self-doubt, Self-doubt begets a lowering or lost of self/assumed worth, Lower perceptions of self worth creates personal discomfort, Unresolved Discomfort beget anger, Anger begets blame. And then: GET OUT OF THE WAY and WATCH OUT! I am able to say or threaten to do things to people that are that are unkind, discouraging and really irrational. And do you know What? It all starts from my uncomfortable assumed position on my-own created pity pot - which I call "Poor ME!  OK today I am doing something - What? I have a few options. I'm in the process of choosing. BUT I KNOW THAT I MUST BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY LIFE AND HOW I FEEL! Hey, Thanks for reading, I feel better! 

Hello, you may remember me - I'm the guy who started this blog like a high test drag racer and then ran out of gas before the race had really begun! Sorry! Things are OK but far from perfect! What's that - so what isn't like that? That is one hel'ava an attitude to offer a guy who was just trying to be interesting. Well let's see if there is anything that you've missed, OK or that I didn't tell you! I'm now 72 and feeling it both physically and mentally - Physically-a lot of thing hurt and some things don't work well! Mentally - I find it very easy to forget to know what I was saying or doing - what was I saying?  No it is really not that bad but there are times…  Anyhow I am having problems finding a sense of usefulness! Retirement has to many Tuesday in each week - periods of "nothing to do". The emptiness emphasizes the "emptiness"! I feel like a bi-polar child filled with anxiousness to be involved but no one or no where can I find satisfaction and personally rewarding involvement. I always like the "bright and hot lights" but now someone turned the switch off! Some have made personal suggestions and I have failed to follow up - my bad! My wife is keeping herself busy ( to busy) and I resent it.  My imagination has created fears which easily turn out to be anger.  I may go and seek help from someone who can kick me in the right direction - Hell any other direction!  Thanks for reading this stuff - but you really should go to the public library and pick up any book.  It has to be better than this! But thank you, you have given me some relief. I'll be back more frequently - I need you!